Jeska 1.31 Solar Plexus
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[00:00:00] If you've been feeling like shit and just spinning out of control, like you're falling into that self doubt and like your nervous system is just fucking stuck in survival mode, like Is anyone else relating to this? If you're listening and you're kind of nodding your head or thinking, oh shit, that kind of does sound like me, I want you to know that you're not alone.
You're not alone because, like, I have been going through it lately. Like, I find almost every single person I've talked to that is empathic or really inclined to, like, their intuitive and heart led nature has been going through some shit lately. Like, I mean, we're always going to have those moments where we feel the whole world is crashing down.
And then you catch yourself clenching your jaw or clenching your fists or having more frequent headaches or just like seeking that comfortable disassociation activity that like doesn't feed the dream and really is just a distraction because you're on the edge of burnout and you're actually not taking responsibility for what got you here.
Now don't get too upset. [00:01:00] Like, I'm only calling you out with love because I, like I mentioned, I have been spiraling too. And today's episode, we're going to tap into confidence and regaining control over the shitstorm of emotions and mayhem and all of that chaos that is just swirling around in your head, at home, in life, in your business, at work,
chaos is everywhere. So we're going to lean into acceptance. and awareness, and recalibrate this shit right now, sistar. Let's do this.
Hello, my mystic sistars! It's your fellow creative and multi passionate soul, your host, Jessica Mystic here, and obviously, I'm here to be your ultimate hype girl and cheer you on and love you as you are, all the while showing you what's truly possible, and I'm going to teach you how to actually make the most of your life in business through mindfulness, through magic, owning your magic, helping you develop good cash habits to help curate the chaos so you can manifest more money and burn down the bullshit in order to save [00:02:00] your sanity and create a life that you truly deserve.
So let's start with a gut check. Gut check! You know, someone actually used the term gut check with me not long ago. I've never used it before until like this last, uh, I'm not gonna say this year because it's a new year. I'm gonna say maybe like four months ago, someone said they had to do a real gut check.
And I was like, that is a term that I am going to use from now on. I can't remember who said it, but when I do remember, I'll have to shout them out. Literally today we are tapping into your tummy. Tapping into the tum tum. So we can move the fuck on through all this muddy shit. Okay, we're gonna talk chakras.
So, it's your solar plexus chakra. In our stomach is our solar plexus. And our solar plexus chakra is responsible for, it's responsible for like your confidence, your self esteem, as well as like helping you feel more in control of your life. and this chaos that we're continuously creating and curating and cashing in on, okay?
So your solar plexus chakra, [00:03:00] when it's blocked, you have a lack of confidence. You're feeling powerless, that inability to assert yourself. It's also connected, like, obviously, with our stomach being the digestive system and our adrenal glands. This is what's regulating our fears, our sense of power, and those gut intuitive feelings that we get, which oddly enough, When you're heart led you should be like leading with your heart, but we often lead with our gut because we lack the confidence and self worth to lead with just our heart and anchor into our emotions.
We're too busy dealing with this and in a lack in our solar plexus. So when this is out of balance, you're feeling that, that fear, that anxiety, there's eating disorders, loss of control. And for me, it's been a huge flare up with body dysmorphia. Like I'm gonna be brutally, honestly, brutally honest about that right now.
And it's your, one of your core money chakras. Like there's a, there's a fucking episode. I'm gonna dive into later. So like your three core money chakras are your root, your sacral, your solar plexus. So we're gonna start with the solar plexus and we're gonna work our way down and get deeper as the month goes on and we get into like self love and self care because it's [00:04:00] February and like you need to be your own fucking valentine this month.
So that's what we're gonna do here. This episode's actually been very intuitively guided. I had an idea I wanted to do, like, some self love work, but then, like, I've been going through the shit. So the universe is like, oh, you want to touch on this? I threw some stuff my way. So I want you to think about, I want you to think about, this insecurity you're going through right now.
Like, every, you know, everyone's talking about, like, there's been this recession, and, like, ah, people have lost their jobs, and things are still on the downturn, things are whatever, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. But in the end, It's the after Christmas bank account blues. It's the quote unquote slow season, which I honestly really hate the term slow season Because it's only slow if you don't know how to sell and if you have a slow season in your business Then maybe you should be working on yourself.
There's seasons for for gain and season for growth. Remember our three top priorities everybody so when that new year new you pressure is set aside you're left with that same person you were [00:05:00] The same person that you are, and always have been. Like, the same one who actually hasn't done shit, and said they do all the shit, and wrote a huge list, and now you just feel like shit because you didn't do any of it.
Maybe you started, tried it, didn't like it, and then lost track, or got distracted, now you're beating yourself up because you forgot to do the things, and three weeks has gone by, and now this month is already gone. It's not even half over, it's gone. You're like, I just wasted a whole month out of the year.
No, you didn't. You're gaining clarity. We don't operate in the same guidelines we like to put ourselves under. We are the ones creating these pressures on ourselves, so everything that's feeling out of control is also like the perspective and pressure you're pushing on yourself, because we like to have unrealistic expectations.
So let's just tech back in here. I, I want you to think back. So like that new moon where everyone went fucking wild and spiraled and went off the deep end, it's kind of like carried on, and now we've, if you're listening to this episode, as it drops, we've just recently gone through like a full moon phase.
And usually the full moon it's like, oh I haven't completed, I haven't finished. And we just feel that hastiness and [00:06:00] that rush when we're transitioning into the next lunar cycle. So when you're faced with the full moon energy that's recently happened as I'm recording this, There's a lot of that unresolved feelings leading more into that loss of control.
You're just, you're unanchored, like you're trying to, you want to ignite and become this whole new version of you or take on all these new things, but you still haven't cleaned up your own mess. Remember how we kind of outline and pre plan everything is happening for you in divine timing and the attentions that you've already set up for yourself.
You need to give yourself more credit. You are in control, you are capable of changing and deciding and creating new things and new ideas and shifting and moving in whatever way you desire. And if you put something down because it was too heavy to carry or you weren't ready for it, you can pick it up whenever you want.
You are in control, you're just not feeling confident to Hold yourself to that, cause you're too busy in the self doubt, self judgement spiral. You know, I've done this myself, cause a lot of us right now, with that like, business bank account blues I was talking [00:07:00] about, we get so fixated on the numbers in our bank.
Oh, I've spent this much, and then we look at like, our fiscal yearly review, where you're doing like, your taxes, and they're coming out soon, so that's a whole thing you're gonna dive into and be like, oh my god. I don't have any money, I can't wait for my tax return. Or maybe you're, if you're in business, you're like, Oh shit, what am I gonna have to pay these?
And like, maybe you gotta do quarterly payments on your taxes. And money has a really big way of making us feel fucking worthless and really behind. Especially when we have debt. Newsflash, if you're in business and you don't have debt, like, Fucking good on you, but most of us do. Debt buys us time. So instead of looking at your bank account and feeling shitty, like you're out of control and you don't have the proof that you're looking for, instead of focusing on the money, focus on, or whatever that one thing is for you right now that you're so hooked on, I want you to tap into the evidence bank rather than your bank account.
or whatever it is you're fixating on. So for example, how [00:08:00] I've been spiraling, when I reflect and look at the bank accounts, it's new year, new commitments, new things, new ideas, new launches. I've hired new team members. There's all these things that go on in business. New coaches, new programs, new investments.
There's, we're always investing. We're investing and spending money to make more money. That's business, right? We'll spend money to make money. That only works if you're spending money on what's going to make you money. Are you in a season of gain or a season of growth? There's things and strategies in place here you have to consider.
This is what I go through with my private clients. Like, what are we anchoring into? Where's your energy at? What do you need right now? We all need money. So take the shame out of needing money. We're always going to need money in order to gain access to things that we want. Money is an energy.
Just like you need energy to get out of bed in the morning. You need energy to go work out. That energy is within you. It's called potential energy. We then convert it into kinetic energy. Fuckin science here, people. And then that is the magic. That's the movement. Okay, and then so on and so forth [00:09:00] energy cannot be created or destroyed money is the very same You are in control because that energy is forever a part of you You are an energetic being remember last episode we got into energetics a little bit You haven't go back and listen to it when you're focusing on your bank account.
Like I've done this very thing Okay, so I'm gonna, I'm gonna tell you my real experience this last month. When I'm looking in my bank account, I actually got upset the other night when I was talking to my husband and I said, fuck, you know, I've been at the same balance for months and I was really starting to spiral.
And I started to say to myself, like, it's not working. I haven't, I haven't gone up. I haven't made more money. I wanted to see like half paid off my debt by now. I wanted to have this, you know, all these things. And I was looking at this one. business bank account and I was so upset because I was still sitting at the same tens of thousands of dollars available for the last like, like four to almost six months actually.
And I'm just like, I've been sitting here, this tens of thousands [00:10:00] of dollars for six months. Like why isn't it moving? Why isn't it working? What am I doing wrong? And instead I had the moment where I went, wait a minute, there's two points to this. I have tens of thousands of dollars available. When I first went into business for myself, many moons ago in 2017, when I opened my corporation and started White Rabbit Tattoo Collective as Jessica Rabbit.
And opened my own tattoo shop. I remember thinking I won the fucking lottery because a bank finally granted me a 10, 000 overdraft. I had 10 G's to work with. Never in my life did I think I would be gifted 10 G's. I was looking for five. And I was like, Oh my god, I have so much money to open my tattoo shop with.
Oh my gosh, I'm so excited. Which, fun fact, is the same building I opened my school in, two doors down, [00:11:00] many years later. In the same month I opened my, or closed my shop originally. Anyway, I digress. Multipassionate mind. Come back. So, I remember thinking 10 G's was like the holy grail. And here I am, in a spiral of self pity and self doubt because I have tens of thousands of dollars available to me now, and have for months.
And have it dipped under, like I made this my new zero. So instead of like, operating on zero, my new zero was like, I will not let my bank account go under, like, if it's under 16 G's, I'm like, it's at zero! But I have tens of thousands of dollars available, to me now, in this moment. And what am I so worried about?
And I have income coming in. I have monthly recurring revenue. I have students registered. I have, I have private coaching clients. I have a new membership coming out. Like I have so many [00:12:00] avenues for money to flow my way. I've got products. I've got pigments and biotech that I sell and distribution. You know, I have so many different pathways for money to flow my way.
Than the day I got that 10, 000. Overdraft. Well, they called it a business line of credit, but the way it worked here is it's an overdraft. So anyway, six to one, half a dozen the other. So I'm sitting there and I'm like, wait a minute, instead of being in lack and scarcity, I need to go back into the gratitude attitude zone.
Like, and we all say like gratitude, gratitude, but it's so easy to forget and slip out of. So I had to turn around and be like, I need to be grateful. I have gratitude. this money available to me. I have money in excess. I also have room on my credit cards. I've paid down over 20, 000 in credit cards in the last couple months.
For me to be dropping like eight to ten thousand dollars in credit card payments monthly, like, never did I think that was even, that's, that's, I'm almost dropping as much on paying shit off as I was granted [00:13:00] in the beginning years ago. So when I start to shift and think of these things, it's like, holy fuck!
Not to mention, my bank account has the same tens of thousands of dollars available, but what have I done in the meantime? I've hired five new members to my team. I've upgraded equipment in the studio. I've outsourced tasks that don't serve me to free up my time, like the body doubling I've been speaking of.
I work with top level business coaches. I'm in incredible memberships that support me. Being my highest self and my self embeddment. I'm developing product lines. Like I have more products coming into distribution. I'm signing distribution contracts. Like, all of these things are happening. I've invested thousands of dollars in products and pigments and all of these things.
But I'm sitting here concerned because my bank account has the same amount of money available? Like, what the fuck? Like, if I'm looking at my spending, like, [00:14:00] I've spent and invested so much, but yet haven't touched my available balance? Like, isn't that the fucking goal? Isn't that the dream? Yes, I want it to grow, but, whoa!
Here I am beating myself up so I want you to think and take like an evaluation. I'm not saying all of this to brag you guys. I'm, I'm showing, painting an example of exactly what's going through my mind and where I need to shift and what I need to look at. Because when you're feeling like, even if it's after, after Christmas and even if you're in early stages of business or just starting a business or wanting to start a business and you're looking at your bank account and you're feeling stressed or you're, you know, you're like, do I spend the 500 on this course?
Do I spend 3, 000 on this course? Do I hire this coach for five grand, 10 grand, 20K? some of the ones I've worked with. Like when you're looking at these big investments or small investments and you're too busy worrying about what's left in your account, ask yourself a question. You're in control here. You get to decide what you spend your money on.
Is what you're spending your money on going to make you more money? Is it going to gain you the clarity and the [00:15:00] confidence to move forward in your life and in your business? Is it going to free up that energy, that frazzle, that chaos that's going on in your brain and getting out of your head? into motion.
Like, when I look at this and realize what I've built in the last six months without touching that principle, I realize I'm living the dream. And I did all this. I now only work four hour work days. Four days a week? Like, how privileged am I? Seriously, like, I need to fucking check myself. A long day of work.
If I work till 4. 30, that's a long day. Like, I used to get up at 5am or earlier and work, and then have baby and kids and drop them off and then go to work and work until six, seven, eight, come home, that bed, dinner, nine, go back at it and build more shit. Like, tattooing, I was just as bad. I worked 10, 12 hour days on clients, drew all goddamn night till two or four in the morning, and then got up and did it all over again.
That shit wasn't sustainable. I was out of control. I felt [00:16:00] like I, the story was I'm a control freak. I have to handle it all. I have to do it all myself. I was more out of control trying to handle everything myself than when I actually. took control of my energy and where I place my power and where I value my time hiring out and managing my business and my life like a real CEO.
I fall into those old patterns and beliefs that if I lean back, I'm going to lose everything. And that's where I catch myself checking. How many followers, how much money's in my account? How many views did this get? Is it working? Is it working? Is it working? So I'm calling myself out here too because I've been experiencing this.
I was doing this literally just a couple nights ago and it dawned on me like fuck I need to do a podcast episode because I had to check myself before I wrecked myself. I don't know who's responsible for that saying but like it's so true. Focusing, like straight up calling myself out. Focusing on only my business has [00:17:00] become a.
Pattern of behavior for me too. And yes, it's great. Yes. I am an action taker. I'm an innovator I'm a visionary, but I also suffer from OCD and hyper fixation It's part of being a little bit emotionally dysregulated disassociated and divergent as fuck, but when When I fall into that belief, if I lean back I'll lose everything, it comes from a place of working so hard by myself in the beginning to build my business up, to build a reputation, to rebuild my business again and open a second business and scale and build that business and then become responsible for helping lead others and building their businesses.
I get so fixated on like, I have to get, I have to really be honest and I have to relearn and reestablish my own boundaries and my own energy. Being honest with like my manifester energy and the cycles I work in, is this serving my top priorities? Am I doing this out of habit [00:18:00] or am I doing this out of productivity?
Because focusing only on my business, like, this is what, this is what's triggered my body dysmorphia on high. Like, we kind of fall into that toxic productivity, that workaholic in us, right? Because our work and our obsession for more and for success, we forget to be present. And then what are you hiding from when you're hyperfixating?
There's something we're hiding from. And I still, I suffer with body dysmorphia and it has been on high. If you've been following me on Instagram, you may have seen in my stories. And it's going to make me tear up because it's, it's, it's a heart root awakening. Like I know, I know my purpose here. Like I, I understand.
And like, I, I think it comes from a lot of people telling me I was vain and be like, Oh, you're so vain. And when I say like, Oh, I look good today or I feel good. Oh, you're so vain. So it was like shameful. To feel good about myself. And that, you know, that just went into everything else. Someone told me I had a face, I remember my crush telling me my face looked like it was made of [00:19:00] jello.
And I had a fat face when I was in grade five, and I'll never forget it. And just all these little stories that build up over time. And like I struggled hard with cystic acne. Oh man, that's a podcast I'll go on to another day. Body image has always been a struggle of mine. And the realization that the deeper work, I was doing a lot of work in releasing fear of being seen, but I wasn't still, I wasn't taking responsibility for the inner shame and self abuse.
of neglecting myself. Neglecting myself in a way that like not taking care of this dysmorphia, not acknowledging it, not talking about it, not working through it, not making, you know, self love is great, booking a facial is great, but like not moving my body more, not taking responsibility for the foods that I'm eating when I'm putting into my body.
Not taking responsibility for my time, and putting more things in my schedule when I should be taking quiet time. Like, these are things that I put aside, because I've been, Oh, I'll just do [00:20:00] this. Oh, I'll just make this. Because I love to create, but I also love to create as a form of distraction. So I need to get fucking real, and this is where you lose control.
Because you think, hyper fixating on this control in your business, and making money, and creating all these things so people can be happy, and making all this content, and putting all this stuff into the world, but what are you putting into you? That's where you're spinning out. That's where your solar plexus is getting depleted.
That's where you're just fucking pouring from that empty cup.
Realizing that this deeper work was being pushed aside in fear. It is a fear of admitting weakness. And I'm gonna be crying in my damn podcast, but it was weak, the fear of being weak as I was trying to grow my audience because now that I was working through a fear of being seen, now these people are gonna see me with a person with a bunch of fucking problems.
Like, but we all have problems. [00:21:00] We all have baggage. There's actually a post, shout out to Nancy Medoff. She made a post about people having baggage and it hit me hard because I'm like we do all have baggage! But nobody fucking talks about it! Especially us who've been told to like, we're, to be a certain way or to tone down, we're too much, we need to be more quiet, we need to fit in, we need to not be Such a distraction, we talk too much, like, we're always told this, that, and everything else, and like, we start hating ourselves for what we can't control.
Shoutout to those that interrupt when they're excited and then feel like an asshole afterwards. But, having the conversation, acknowledging what happens in the moment, and still apologizing for what may have taken place. Don't apologize for who you are, but you can apologize for interrupting, and then offer Explain why, don't use an excuse, but being real with where you are, not hating yourself for it, goes a long way.
Because all those little things you push down, turn into something ugly, and that becomes the shadow work. That's the stuff you're [00:22:00] distracting yourself from, and that's where everyone has that fake it till you make it bullshit. If you're on my email list, you heard me talk about this too. It's such shit.
You shouldn't be faking anything because then you're not actually filling anything up. You're just running on empty. No wonder you're burnt out. No wonder you're tired. No wonder you feel so fucking broken. Honey, you're not broken. You're not broken. You're a human fucking being. When shit's run out, shit's run out.
You gotta charge that shit back up. And the only way you can do that is by plugging back in and re And that's how you gain your power back. Just like a fucking battery, like I'm not gonna flow in through analogies today. So, like, just get real and ground in. Like, in all honesty, where are you at? I want you to sit with that question this week.
Where are you at? Where are you at? Legit, where are you at right now [00:23:00] in spirit, in mind, in body? Where are you at in your life, in your business, in your relationships, in your family? Like, I'd love to hear from you on this. Like, please, if you are feeling alone, or you are struggling, or any of this is resonating with you, feel free, you can hit the links in the show notes.
It'll take you, it'll take you to my link in bio. No, that's not what I was saying. You can hit the link on my IG. It'll be tagged in the show notes. You can hit me up on IG, send me a DM. Like, my inbox is always open. Feel free to message me anytime. I would love to hear from you. Okay, the only way we can heal and work through things is by admitting it.
Sometimes it's easier to admit typing into a screen to someone that you think you kind of know but don't really know because then you kind of have that like passive, I'm committed and I'm getting it out there but I don't really know this person so they can't really judge me. I'll be that space for you.
And then if you want to keep talking to me And [00:24:00] form a true connection, we can continue to do so. Like, I'm all about it, let's fucking connect. You want to connect on IG, let's fucking do that. I want to help you help yourself. So that you can be better for yourself. And create your best life. Cause that's how I'm going to change the world.
By having people anchor into who they are, their humanity. And working through and just acknowledging the healing journey. That we're all here on.
Getting honest and real. And owning up to it is how you're going to start to fill yourself back up and get that confidence. The more you lead yourself through these challenges, then you embody that authority, that leadership. Start taking note of the accomplishments you have and building that evidence bank.
If you have to list out your accolades every week or every day, if you want to celebrate, like get a note, like take post it notes, you know, get a jar. And like, what are you ha what are you proud of yourself for today, and put them in a jar. [00:25:00] I'm gonna fucking do that myself actually, it's a great idea. I just, I just come up with this shit, thank you universe.
But,
I just want you to get it out, and work on you. Like this is where the distraction and the urge to improve comes from, because it's that deeker deeker. It's that deeper lack of that self love and worthiness. And I'm not trying to be rude, you guys. I'm not trying to judge you on this. We all have it. It's part of being a highly empathic human being.
We may not even be, like, these, these doubts and these feelings and this, this, this lack of worth might not even be put there by you. It can be like a universal grief and burden you're carrying. It could be a chronic pain that you're living with. It can be unresolved trauma, all of it, whatever, anything, anything.
But just know that you're not broken. You trying to hide and feel like you're broken is what's depleting your solar plexus even more. There is [00:26:00] nothing wrong with you. There is no shame. And just not feeling sane some days, only love as we work through these ugly emotions, only love leading with love, where is that's the only way you're going to learn how to navigate.
The muddy waters that are going on in there, all the tossin and turnin and turmoil. That's how you're gonna swim through all this shit and soar into the clear skies, filled with millions and billions of beautiful stars shining with new opportunities and abundance that await you. Being a creative soul, atypical, divergent, undiagnosed ADHD and possibly on the spectrum and just alien as fuck.
I know this. This is why I made this podcast. So my voice can be found by those other brilliant minds that feel burdened by not feeling normal and feeling broken and feeling under pressure to become someone that they aren't, to [00:27:00] fit into something. Stop trying to fit in. You don't need to fit in. You're so fucking incredible as you are.
I want you to light the world up with your light. This is why I took this podcast and felt so called to take this all a step further. This is why, like, this is, this sorority is for you to feel heard and understood, and I felt like connecting with you through this means is one way, and I took it a step further and created the Mystic Sisterhood.
That's my community membership. Because crazy ass peeps like us deserve to connect and to get rich in all areas. Of our life, because we're not broken. There's nothing wrong with us. In fact, we don't need to try and figure out how to do it, how everyone else is doing it. We get to choose and decide how to make our shit work for us.
That's what it's about. Like, I was always been an overachiever. [00:28:00] That's why I get into this. I'm always overachieving and, and running and hiding from what's going on inside because I never felt. I never felt like I was good enough. I was never getting ahead. I was always burning the candle at both ends. I was looking for good grades, looking for groups to fit into.
I mean, like, hello military life, always the new kid. And just not ever knowing how to translate, like, How to translate my ability and my work ethic into like, creating my own business and like, that with the so frazzled and so struggled and hating myself for not being able to do well right off the bat because like, grades didn't matter when I left post secondary.
I spent so many years, I spent like 8 years in post secondary. Fucking straight A's. And in like Phi Theta Kappa honor societies and all that shit, for what? When I left, I had nothing. No one gave a fuck what my grades were. And then I just felt like I was failing even more. I didn't have anyone to talk to.
You know, you go through college, and if you haven't been through college, you go through high school, whatever. [00:29:00] I had no groups. I would turn to just like isolation, spending my time reading self help books, downloading countless courses, or Free content as I'm doom scrolling, consuming all sorts of shit from all areas of the internet, and following the industry leaders, and just that comparison Shithole made me feel worse about myself.
I felt worse. I follow every motivational speaker. I listen to all the things I did all the practices. I had my crystals. I went I would write my affirmations, say my affirmations, but in the, in the end I felt worse because I was so completely overwhelmed with all the information that I felt so stupid and too ashamed to reach out or admit to anybody because I was struggling with all of this inner shit.
My solar plexus has been depleted probably most of my life and
I'm making it my divine mission Especially when I come across All of, like, you know, all the platforms that you see me on, you see me, like, being my goofy ass self, right? Like, I'm [00:30:00] fun, I'm bubbly, I'm colorful, I'm bold, but a lot of the times when I've been put in the spotlight or I have to show up, it's that survival mode.
I hide behind a smile and I mask just like I have been my entire life and I've really delved in with building Jessica Mystic. Jessica Mystic, like, my name. My name is Jessica Lawrence. Jessica Mystic is not a stage name for me. It is a version of me. It is my higher self. It's not about me hiding behind a name or a persona.
This is me anchoring into who I am in my soul and as my being and really being honest. Bringing me to you, showing you the journey, showing you what's possible. I want parts of my story to relate and activate you, so that you can do the same. I didn't feel that anyone ever understood me. Sometimes I still wonder if anyone really does understand me, or just like, I think they understand me.
But either way, I throw my wavelength, that's always cool. Whether or not they do understand me is kind of irrelevant. But especially those who are already [00:31:00] successful or had their shit together. Like, I crave. I think we all do crave connection and guidance, especially with others who know what it feels like to obsess over success, to obsess over personal growth, and wanting to actually make a real difference in the world.
Like, I want to save the fucking world. Maybe it's the military upbringing. Maybe it's the idea of being taught at a young age that the world is a war zone. Like, I don't just want to be in the troops or in battle. I want to save the world. And fighting for world peace is like fucking for Virginia. That shit is never going to fucking happen.
But we can still make it a better place. There's always going to be light. There's always going to be dark. But I'll tell you right now everybody, light conquers darkness. So no matter how dark you feel, no matter how empty, any of your chakras may be, you can always fill them with light. Because we are, that all in energy, the rainbow fractal spectrums of light in this universe will find a way, that light will always find a way.[00:32:00]
You know, I'd get stuck in my head overthinking everything, and just like drowning in to do lists, paralyzing myself, not able to take any action, feeling like I'm failing, beating myself up, and then throwing myself into destructive behavioral patterns, or hanging out with people that I probably shouldn't have been.
Staying in abusive relationships and going back to them because you're just, you're just in that broken state, like, what's the point? But then we pull ourselves out of it because you can and you will and you do deserve better.
When you're doing too much, like for me, when I'm doing too much, it's a desperate attempt to like prove myself and I get into that frantic feeding of my chaos. It's because I'm, I'm going into that. I don't know enough. What if they don't believe, what if they don't think I'm good enough, and then I dive into, what if, that's perfectionism, right?
Going back into that rabbit hole, that knowledge hole, like, we want to learn, learn, learn, absorb, absorb, consume, consume, but [00:33:00] really it doesn't get us anywhere. It really never gets us anywhere. And that's why I created the Sisterhood. It's a supportive, space for you to connect, get out of your head, into motion, and on a deeper level with yourself, and with other like minded people, because you're not the only crazy motherfucker out there.
We're all nuts, but in the best way. You can make money and be insane, but you don't want to feel insane. You want to feel seen, and you want to feel like you're crazy fun, not just going crazy. Right?
Like, this is where you can continue to expand your knowledge, stay accountable in a way that's not just adding to the shit pile of stuff that you consume and hoard in the back of your mind. This is taking action to make shit happen. And it's so easy to get into this community membership because I know when we're stuck in this, like, especially like this after Christmas overwhelm, like maybe you want to work [00:34:00] with me or you want to work with another high level coach, but the idea of investing such a large amount, like you're just too afraid, it doesn't feel safe and you're not there yet.
And you don't want to throw yourself overboard and put your nervous system into like complete high alert. That's why I created this community membership because it's easier for people to access and get the help they need now without that huge commitment that's going to take a huge hit on your nervous system.
So you can work through, you can work through the energetics. You can work through taking small, simple actions. Like this community membership only has two lives a month. And if you miss the live, all the recordings are there for you. You can go back into the library. There's only one integration homework per month.
You only have to do one thing a month to move the needle, to make yourself feel better, to own your energy, to move forward. I mean, the more you put in, the more you'll get out, but it's not required for you to be all in right off the get go. We gotta sort through this shit, get through the energy blocks.
You need to get out of this excuse of being an introvert, and hating yourself in the darkness, and [00:35:00] feeling alone in it, because you're not alone. You're choosing to be alone if you don't get in on something like this, if not my membership. Find a community, find a group, you have to make an effort to get out of your head and into the world again.
So when you anchor into the energy and what you bring to this world, that's where you find your, where you place your energy is where you place your power. So when you anchor into that, and your purpose, and your why, and your drive, you start to take those small steps, you gain that momentum, and then you become an unstoppable force.
It's that community membership, you guys, I'm talking about. It is on pre sale right now. It's brand new. Our first live is February 2nd. And like, I won't lie, I was like, oh, should I be doing this now? Maybe I should bump it. No. I was called to create this, and I'm going hard at it. It's like, I'm not, it was one of those things where I worried, like, am I trying to people please and give too much?
But no, this is what it was meant to do. The sorority is the podcast, but this mystic sisterhood. This is where, like, my purpose is to connect and grow and bring [00:36:00] humanity back into business. Well, how can we be any more human if we're not helping ourselves? And we can't just all do it ourselves. That's that lie of control.
That's why we feel out of control. We need to learn how to show up and be seen and ask for help and support and guidance and be present in more than just our own thoughts. So you can check that out, link in the show notes. And since gift giving is my love language, side note, shameless plug, I am offering three months free.
For those that sign up for a year. So that's a whole quarter. You have a quarterly option, an annual option. So you get like a whole quarter of your year for free to like get your mind right and get fucking going. So that is my gift to you. I know one of my business coaches like when she heard she's like, that's very generous.
And I was like, well, That's just the way I am. We talked about that and like, gratitude and giving and receiving and just, that's my gift to you. If you've [00:37:00] been listening, especially if you've been following me on here, I really appreciate it. I really want to say thank you and by having you come to this community, I'm going to thank you with those three free months.
It's very low commitment, you guys. Like, if you sign up for the year and those three free months, like, it's under 100 a month. Like, it's not which is crazy, but I wanted an access point for everyone to get in and start building this community for real. Like, I want conversations and connections and collaborations, and then that also has the strategy to it.
Not only are you in, like, the energy of abundance and manifestation, but there's also, like, the strategy and the collaboration and the growth and the network. Like, you know that saying, network is your net worth? Let's just make money and fucking work our magic, peeps. Like, losing sight of humanity is what's leading to this loss of control, right?
So when we focus so much on the doing, doing, doing, and not getting enough of actually nurturing our spirit, our intuition, and our energy, like, you need to remember, you are [00:38:00] creative. You are multi passionate. That's what's making you nuts, because that power, that power is chaos. Like they say in magic, the power is chaos that you're tapping into and casting from.
That is your divine power. That is your god given, goddess given, whatever whomever given gift. Your gift is a gift of creativity. You can create so much more than you give yourself credit for, but you forget to create space. For yourself to thrive and grow to master your gifts to share it on a larger scale with more people Maybe you don't want a multi six figure beauty biz Maybe you just want to create one thing And be that and simply just enjoy doing that one thing So you can create in other ways for yourself and for others on the side.
That's Fine, but your calling is to connect and express through creativity. The world is in dire need of more [00:39:00] color, more joy, more love, just overall self expression. The key to making your wildest dreams a reality and to cash in is to create a life that you actually want to be fucking living. Not surviving or trying to make life work the way you thought you were supposed to or told to.
You need to actually decide, you need to decide to take care of yourself before taking care of others. And that's really fucking hard to do. Coming back to like the point of today, I was getting on a tangent, but stop pouring from an empty cup. What is the point of all this? If you're sick, feeling like shit, and forgetting to live your life, or regretting the life you've lived so far.
Like, take your power back. Pull yourself into the present. If you have to scratch and claw your way through, like, there's that much resistance there. You have not been doing the work [00:40:00] on you. And I promise if you choose yourself, I promise you won't regret it. It is not selfish. Tune into you. And start feeding your soul, from your belly, from your solar plexus.
I'm going to end it there, because that, that feels really good. Start feeding your soul, your belly, your light. When your flame burns brighter, think of it this way, like, when you have a candle, right, and you light someone else's candle with your candle, your flame doesn't go out, their candle is now lit.
And then they can light that, and it goes on and so forth. You're, you're not going to put your candle out by lighting someone else's. By sharing and connecting. And that candle is burning brighter, and brigh there's more, the light will fill the [00:41:00] room the more we share and pass on and connect with others.
So I want you to not only they always say like, take the torch, take the lead. I want you to take your fucking candle, and just start lighting candles. I want you to see your light spread, because your People experiencing you, people come to you, experience you, talk about you, sharing your life and who you are and your light, your magic is what's going to spread more light in the world and that's what's going to light your soul on fire and have you burn brighter and feed you, just feed the fire.
Like this is the kind of fire we want to feed. Like this, this is a, you want to burn hot in a way that works for you. So you can keep the engine going rather than burnout. Much love, many blessings. Until next time.
